A "place" of MiNe....

How to be with him when there's her in between?

2010-04-17T14:37:00.002+08:00

everything that he done, i will get the blame. But yet, i cant show my anger or emotion ,or else he will scold me or get really mad at me. I don't know this relationship gona hang on untill when.. but for now, i will just bear with it and hidden all my unsatisfaction inside my heart.
Haih~ cheers!

2010-02-02T00:43:00.002+08:00

Do you know why people don't talk so often? especially those adults. That's because as we grow, we tend to face a lot of problem, then, we will become very emo, after all, we will prefer not to speak out our feelings or thought. That's why people in these days don't talk much. Those who don't really speak, they are actually using their mind to think. But , those who speaks a lot, are those who know nothing at all.

hmm... in my case, i don't really speak a lot in front of my family because i know that i have a responsibilities and burden that i need to hold on. That's why i don't simply speak out to them anymore . But i still wish that i can be like a kids, so that i can speak out whatever that is in my mind , which give me lesser time to think. and that equals to no need to think problems which bother me. If everyone , i mean every adult could be a kids, well then, there will be no decision to make or problems to solve!

A Must watch!!

2009-12-19T14:19:00.004+08:00

Avatar, A must watch movie.. Went to bukit raja yesterday with ken to watch this show.. It has a very very very nice story line with good animation. I think it will be better when watch it in 3D . But even i watch it in 2D, it still shows the details on every each of the avatar.I would say that the director of this movie is really unique, the story is different and the way they compose the movie also have their own style. This movie rocks! lol

Just Trying to be happy!~

2009-12-12T15:10:00.001+08:00

well, just finish my last paper last thursday. Holidays is on now.. but things just didnt really go well. I hate to say that, but, yet..is the same old shit again. sometimes i wil be wondering whether is it ok to just stick with someone that dunno you well even after so long that u all have been together. He scolded me again and again. and when i'm moody or sad, he wil just leave me alone at there. When u ask him y?? he will just say that he want me to cool down and chill alone. Wtf...haih.... i'm just sick of him!

On the 10 nov 09

2009-11-10T23:06:00.002+08:00

Is late at night now, but I'm still awake and preparing my tomorrow chemistry test. Having a serious stomach ache. And as usually, my leg ache when is rainy day. Lol.. I'm a really old lady.
ok, now~ report of the day:

8 o'clock at the morning, Engineering dynamics class cancelled. This has been a daily routine for us as our dearest lecturer Mr. big size will be absence for almost every of our morning class. He even absence for his 'prepared' replacement class. As a result, We all cancelled our Test 1 today. And it actually helps us a lot so that we can have more time to prepare our Test 2 for other subject. What a kind lecturer! That's what we've got from The new Inti and laureate. Waste of time and money!~
Hanging around at college and try to find some new idea for my blog's template and searching around the net for the way of how to make my face smaller. haha.. Pls don laugh at me because i know i have a really fat round face but a small body.Looks odd!
At the 12 noon, went for basic computing class. Get the result of Test 1. He actually took one month to mark our Test paper. Wth.. And as normal, I thought Mr. G Will quotes his favourite quotation " We are not doing any things at this class, U may leave now if you are done copying your exercise!" but , instead of letting us off earlier, He choose to lock us at the room doing nothing and he happily online at there. What a busy day, me and jacQ decide to go out and have our lunch rather than sitting there doing nothing.
After our lunch, We took our beg and head to sunway pyramid for some secret mission. Lol. will review soon!
Pick him and go home.. Rest Then study.

Sorry to all the readers, I hardly tell Mr. choi about what's happening around me anymore Because i scare that i don Have enough time to spend with him . As he already set the time to be with him is only after college time an before he gone home. Pls bear with me to let me tell out our boring life! ;P

Another side of him ;)

2009-11-01T15:40:00.003+08:00

I received a surprise on the last Friday.. When i was actually angry about him for going out with his friend and without inform me , and never even concern about my daily meal... I was planning not to talk to him for the whole day. until... that night.. After meeting up with Sheena and susin, Me and Jeremy went for steamboat. Not forget to mention , Sheena actually bang some body's car at that night. lol... thank god, they were alright. Back to topic! He actually appear at that dinner and show up with a handbag. I was like so touch because he actually put my words inside his heart. I did mention before that i wanted a small handbag that i can keep my wallet , Hp and some small things. lol...Was so glad about it... and he actually cheated on me, because he didn't really hang out with the friend, instead of that , he went and buy his shoe and my bag. muacks.. love him...

A newly PUMA handbag from him . xoxo

It's small and convenient for me! ;)

The most sucky place in my life

2009-10-29T21:09:00.002+08:00

guess what, I've just past my most unlucky day at a very unlucky place called SS14. The reason why i give this 'Praise ' to SS14 is because every time when i come to that place.. i will experience a lot of bad stuff. Don't believe about it??!! let me list down what I've been through..

I stomach ache after eating the chicken rice at one of the so called famous chicken rice shop.
I fell down from the stair case and i actually injured because of a stupid cat who tried to scare me and my friend.
The very 1st time of parking my car at the place was 2day , which is 29 dec.. And it rain heavily.
The best part of all, Raining and my car break down. ISH~~~
All the Foreman at SS14 trying to ask bussines from us, they dont even wana help us to strat jump our car. some even ask us to buy the cable from them. DAmn

Thank god that i'm not alone at that time . Thanks to my darling and thomas who help to fix it. And sorry, thomas.. cause u to be late for your movie ;(

A very happy Reunion!

2009-10-22T20:26:00.005+08:00

well, hello everyone!! lol.. sounds like I'm having a really good mood. this is because I've meet up with my dearest friend this afternoon. Let me make a little intro about her, her name is chiew wei chien. She is currently a law student and a former MGS-ian. She is 168 tall and 3 siblings. Most of all she is still single and available. lol... sounds like I'm selling her out .. OK.. Be serious, she isa very best friend of mine since primary school. and eventhought we actually lost contact during our secondary year, But deep inside my heart, she still have a place. we used to have a lot fun, sad, stupid and funny stuff together. I appreciate her a lot.. muacks..

This is the place where we had our lunch ..- the korean street cafe. We spend about 2 hours plus chatting there. Is a great moment :)

this is my buddy wei chien and me . hahaha..i'm bringing her a tour to Inti college.

Introducing the very two SOh poH in my life .lol... actually, just let both of them to meet up since one is my primary school mate and another one is my college mate. lol.. But both have the similarities, That is : they r my bestie :)they r really tall. lol

Lastly, thank god for giving what i have right now ;D

Goodbye 18 !~~

2009-10-14T00:41:00.005+08:00

well, i've just passed my 18.. and I'm really old for now. Have a great time celebrating with friends and classmate. specially thanks to my friends who stays with me for this special day. And, this year birthday theme seems to be purple..Because everythi on that day are purple in color. As below...

my purple dress....

Purple ipod nano from ken

purple colour product from my lab

this is the book that ee yan bought me..

alright, that's how i pass my 19 year old birthday..... i wil upload the rest soon... And, i wish that i can have a better grade in my studies and have a better year....lol

2009-09-29T12:42:00.000+08:00

i wish to be single again...haih...I'm tired of this game. i hate to be alone but i wish that i can be alone for now... The love is different for now.. I never ask him to be the best but at least.. not that bad... I jus feel so desperate to be single rite now...

VEry !st day of Our Hoilday

2009-09-18T13:13:00.003+08:00

2day is the begining of me and my darling's holiday. Both of our parents left us at home with our siblings. so, V were actually planning somethi. lol... wil share with ya all soon!! goin to enjoy now..Ciao~

Spider wab is all around me!!

2009-09-06T16:08:00.002+08:00

ARGH~~ i need fun . I'm bored.. til death... I wana go college. i wana stop sleeping. I wana stop eating. U know wat?? I'm getting fat recently. All thanks to MK choi. Any one wana hang out?? I swear i wil stop eating and sleep s much once the semester starts. Lol... Tht's all!

SHopping DAY at pavilion!

2009-08-23T14:40:00.004+08:00

On 21st August 2009, which is My darling's big day ..Because~ we are going Pavilion. A shopping complex where our Mr. Choi mun ken never go before. lol.. We drive there at the afternoon and park our car at times square. Which is much more cheaper than parking at Pavilion because the parking rate at pavilion is triple the price. At time square, the max parking fees is Rm 7, while at Pavilion , the 1st hour entry fees is Rm 8. That's the difference. Basically, We walk all over the area. from times square to sungei Wang , then to Pavilion . Den walk back again. At the end of the day, i was planning to bring him to foot massage but he only get to try out for the fish spa but not foot massage because the shop is closing soon and they have got not enough chair for him to sit. haha... Lucky me, who got to enjoy for both. I really enjoy the day very very much even thought is a bit tiring.

View outside Pavilion ( we took it when v standing outside waiting for the rain to stop)

Me and Him~ :P

Our foot (fish spa)

His smelly foot :D

His very new and fit Formal shirt ( bought at Pavilion, from Parkson G2000)

Currently, this shirt is his new Fav.

Shishedo Maquillage Face creator( from Pavilion)

My very first Cosmetic. wakakaka...

My rainy day

2009-07-20T20:27:00.003+08:00

i'm very emo recently. lots of stuff running in my mind.. i'm worry about him, he is so stress over his parents. i know is hard for us to please our parents as in the way they wan. he hope that he wil go uk next year but the parents was hoping him going in this year. which makes me pretty sad. well, I know i shouldn't, but i've got no confidence to myself. I'm gona miss him badly. thinking about this makes my heart ache. I think i'm not gona see him so frequent in dis few weeks. In case, i wil show my moody face..

well, another things that is bothering me is my studies. I'm not sure whether my dad let me go uk arnot..i'm hoping he is gona say yes. i didnt wan to go uk for him. but i wana go there for myself. I've always admire that place. which i hope that i can stay there for a period of time after my studies. hmmm...worries running in my head. tears running in eyes. aching in my heart..

i need fun, i need people to talk to. and i need to sleep well..need to cried out loud....

End of da sem~!!

2009-07-10T14:58:00.002+08:00

omg!!~~~ i'm so busy. needed to finish up things listed below:

EGR mechanics project- my lovely bridge. (which i'm stuck with the material)
my physics lab report and test.
mechanics lab report and test.
Engineering math's homework. (tons of it)
lose weight. (lol)

nieway, will be very busy and stress dis few week until next month after my final. omg~~i hate it.ciao~

2009-06-26T17:40:00.002+08:00

everything seems to be different now..
your care. your love. your tone.
I'm ill yet i don dare to ask for ur help.
I'm stress yet i don dare to tell you coz i know is useless.
I'm lonely yet you dunno.
When i need you, you weren't there.

you used to make me proud.
you used to make me happy.
you used to make me feel warm.
you used to cares for me.
you used to listen to me.

But its all different for now..

ill again~

2009-06-25T16:09:00.002+08:00

lol..hai everyone!!i'm sick again....stayin at home now and resting.Having heavy flu...ish..and serious sore throat.missed one test today. nieway...thanks for all ur concern ..appreciae it much. love ya.xoxo

I'm sick

2009-06-22T18:10:00.001+08:00

i'm having fever for 2 days.. tired. doctor suspected ws H1N1 .. lol ..thank god tht i'm feeling better now..c ya..

Movie!!~~

2009-06-14T20:07:00.004+08:00

went jj and watch hannah montana last saturday..the day when kien wai come over klg.lol.. didnt know wher to bring him, so, v decidec t go watch mid night movie at Aeon, Bkt tinggi. together with jere and guat teng.

these movie reminds me of my past.. wher my secondary lifes and Ausmat at kbu. ausmat really knot me out from my life. Last year was my most miserable year of all. Thank god that my darling be with me and be my very own shoulder. well, I did struggle just to pass it all but ended up, it didn turns out as what i expected. Hmm.. during this year, i work really hard to get a excellent result. I've even thought of givng up after da incident of ausmat, but thank god that i keep it up. And now, the result of mine at inti is not very bad though. but my parents didnt reall mention anythi towards my achievement. But, when i', watching hannah montana, i suddenly receive a msg from my uncle. He say tht he is glad to heard tht i'm awarded with dean's list , ask me to keep it up. On tht moment i was lik..Wah, ther's smeone tht finally say somethi. And i'm very very touch. My tears drop down when miley cyrus sing "The climb" . the song is just lik my feelings. I've always working hard for my future. lol

Thanks tht i still have guat teng , jeremy and my darling with me. They actually help me past through all my hard times in my life. I love you guys. xoxo~

TeRminator SalVation~!!

2009-06-02T21:08:00.003+08:00

Haha...Terminator Salvation the second time. This time was different..i'm watching it with two cute guy. one is my darling and another one is Yim.lol.... with my darling's explanation, i actually understand it well. hmm...Overall it is a good movie with good actions , good technologies, explains the meaning of humanity and it actually tells out the differences between human and machines. But i will still prefer Angels & Demons eventhought both is also about sciences , technologies and humanity. lol...Thats all for now..

P/s: sorry for falling asleep in the cinema..kinda bored when watch it twice. :X

HAir cut on the 31st~

2009-06-01T22:53:00.003+08:00

Transformation of my darling's Hair. From a Mushroom to a .....

Begining of the process!!

while waiting ~

during The process!!

turns to a Square!!~~lol..new hair style from Monsoon-id.

But..He still looks good when he style up his hair. I LOVe you!!~~muacks

A pleasant afternoon with an unpleasant night on 29th May

2009-06-01T22:33:00.003+08:00

well, the title explains it all...Afternoon, Me and JacQ was having a pleasant lunch with Yim. Pleasant as in happy environment, Well, The lunch held in 'THE STREET CAFE".. haha.... But when it all comes to our coursemate, whatever feelings that we had will be all gone. Our coursemate is not gentleman at all. They leave us after the car park and didnt wait for us when we reach sunway pyramid for the movie. Not only that, the most terrible part is when they cheat us on the movie time. They actually mislead me and JacQ about our movie stating time, and ended up, Me and jacQ have to wait for them outside the cinema for a period of time. WTF man, in my whole life , i've never seen such guy before. Well, and their excuses for not giving us our ticket while Me and JacQ reach the cinema is " The theatre room was lock and they cant get out. This is the lamest Excuse, for all who have been to cinema, you guys will know tht the cinema door will never close. Haih...me and jacQ have to wait outside the cinema for their stupid ticket. This is gona be the last time for us to go out for movie.

My pleasant lunch Pic:

My Korean BBQ lunch box set! :D

Yim's Korean BBQ rice set.

JACQ's Terriyaki Chicken lunch box set.

Me with bob ~taken while waiting for the stupid tickets. ish~@#$

This is the movie that nite. A nice and meaningful movie + a bunch of stupid people= Sucks~

JaREd's Birthday party

2009-05-22T23:30:00.006+08:00

Guess wat.. today is my Brother's brthday...My mum decided to have a so called small party at mcD Sri andalas..All da yap's family is here and all our friends is here too. Thanks for all their present and their attendance.Haha..The kids and the adult are having great fun.

My lovely Family~

The crowd at the party

Game time!(adults are more excited than the kids)

The cousins @!

Birthday boY!

EE yan with ice crem on her face!;P

us playing with the cake..

They looking while the game is on. lol

kids at the slide!I love kids~

me!!

Me and beloved ken with our siblings!! Lovely ..(took it after the part

The ice cream cake~yum yum

The video of the celebration~~

Thanks McD and Happy Birthday my Baby Jared~!

Corner's memory

2009-05-12T21:05:00.002+08:00

I miss the way you smile and say hi to me..
I miss the way you carry me and put me on you lap and tell me that you love me..
I miss the smell of your hair..
I miss the guitar in your room; That you used to play my favourite song for me..
I miss your smile even thought you don have the perfect teeth but you do have the best smile..
I miss the time when I used to call you ling ,whenever need you..
I miss the warmest hug that you have given me and tell me that you love me..
I miss the time when you appear on my birthday and hug me..
I miss your angry look whenever you get jealous..
I miss the time you cares for me..

I remember every moment that we spent together..
I remember your blue colour wall in your room, Your messy cloth on the chair in front of your study table..
I remember where you kept your favourite CD and Gundam..
I remember what colour you like the most..
I remember your ambitions..
I remember what you said to me..
I remember how you treat me good..

But...
I remember how you hurt me...
I remember how many days ,nights and years that I've cry for you..
I remember how silly am i to wait for you..
I remember how many nights that I pray for you..until today..

I miss the feeling when I first saw you..
I miss the feeling when you confess to me..
I miss , I miss , I miss our memory Back at the time...
U choose to left it behind the corner...
I choose to burial it in my heart...

Schools starts soon~~

2009-04-29T21:42:00.003+08:00

hey hey, just get back my result 2day. not a bad wan... GPA 3.65.. haha.. but too bad schools gona starts soon... on da 4 of mei.haih... i would like to intro my college mate here...

This is my class mate(CFESI) - taken at gasoline before exam.(AQ is MIA in these pic)

From left to right- Mun HOn, Leon Thong and nicholas hendraff..

Me and alan ;P

JacQ and Jia Xin

Me and JacQ :O

next time i will show AQ face..haha..coz he has been hiding from my camera.. And thats all for my course mate.!

baby growing strongly~~

2009-04-22T17:38:00.003+08:00

They have open their eyes!! and growing very fast..The white wan is bigger thand the blacks..haha..glad that they are growing~~

STRESS!!

2009-04-13T10:44:00.000+08:00

Omgosh~~Having final will always be my biggest nightmare.haha.. Just finish chemistry paper and waiting for tomoro maths paper. well, should have upload some picture taken last sat on sunny and wun's bday. A great dinner but a sucks clubbing experience which stays not longer than two hours.. Thats all for now.C ya soon~~

New BABY~~

2009-04-04T16:31:00.003+08:00

Yeah~!! EE yan"s rabbit give birth again.wakakaka...This time We force the mother to feed the baby in case they repeat theirs brother footstep.hmmm..here are the four little cute one, Two black and two white with black dots..

Forcing the mother to feed them.(they like to search for the nipple themself xp)

The dad being LoNEly when the mum feeding the baby.

The husband kiss and 'sayang' the wife after the feeding session!

OOoo~ they are sleeping again..

2009-04-03T22:32:00.001+08:00

Today's Presentation

2009-04-03T19:56:00.004+08:00

This is all the hard work that i prepare the night before my presentaion. Yes, It is an origami. This time presentation is to ask us to demo our process essay. And Me and my girlfriends choose to write " How To make an origami vase with tulip". I'm inchargin the vase part.so, the above is all the size of vase that i've made.

Our origami

Me and JacQ (taken when the guys are doin cooking)

"powerpuff girls"xP

Me and Jia Xin

Me and Jia Xin

She "Sat wan"(lost her soul) AGAIN!

The guy cokking maggi mee with bunsen burner(haha~ guys doin gals stuff while the girl teaching the guy how to make flower for their girlfren)

On the way back to get my assignment to pass up( i forget to bring out this morning)

Ikea!!

2009-04-03T19:30:00.005+08:00

Haha, That day me and my friend went to Ikea..Here's how the stiry come. That morning, i kinda forget wher my car key was,so, i took train to the college .The class starts at 10 and i reach there at 11. 30. Omg~ then the lecturer dismiss us early. Since we got about 4 hours break, We all decided to go ss2 to eat. during the journey to ss2. We have gt so many ideas , so many place wanted to go. And after all, We Reach Damansara. And jai xin suggested about Ikea~ So , Not ss2 but Damansara now! xP Here's all the picture that i took at ikea's Toilet and their sample house..haha..all thanks to JacQ( My bestie at college)

At toilet( Coz The mirror is so big)

Because this mirror is nice HahA~~

At the sample model( we both were like two sam pat fellow)

The same sample house

This is taken when JacQ said :" Lets take picture at this dining table and write on the blog as our house." ( Is so stupid xP)

31th March 09 _ Dad's Bday

2009-04-03T19:03:00.004+08:00

Today is dad's bday, i almost forget about this day but thank god mu mum reminds me about it. Our family don have the traditions to celebrate bday like how others do. We usually just go out for a dinner then thatsall for the day. But this time, i bought a cake for my dad. haha....and it ended up with a cool and kinda awkward situation when singing baday song. As u all know, my house only gt me and my brother.. so, there's oni two little voice tht singing at home. Bt , At least my dad ate the cake. Happy Birthday dad!

Me and Bro(when parents are busying)

Cake That i Bought

Mum and Dad ( mummmy don really like to take picture and on tht day ,she's kinda make my dad piss off)

mummy loves you~

2009-03-08T16:46:00.004+08:00

ee yan's rabbit had finally born out 4 little baby. but due to the immature of the mummy bunny, da other two had died. left this following two. I've been helping ee yan to breed this two little cute one since the second day they born. but , on the third night, when ken trying to feed them and check on them. the white one pass away. on the moning, we found out the black one follow the step of the white one. I feel so sorry to them.. i feel that i didnt take good care of them. i didnt read or gain any info before feeding them. i miss them so much , i miss the time when i'm holding them to feed them. miss the time to make them pee after their meal and i feel so happy when the first time chester(the black one) pee, event thought his urine fload over my body, haha..they are just too cute and small to be blame. miss the time they lean on my hand and suck my hand as if my hand were the milk. i miss them so much. i even name them after the name that me and ken wanted to give it to our future child.haha... chester and valentine... hmm... i cant even have the chance to hug them anymore. when ever i think about this, my tears will drop off. i just wana tell them that i love them so much. no matter where they are... i just wish to let them know that i'll love them always.muacks... it's always a regret that they didnt get to open their eyes to see the world. may both of you little baby rest in peace..

baby chester and baby valentine!

Our !ST year anniversary!!

2009-03-02T21:31:00.006+08:00

Yeah!! me and my fatty ken have together step into a whole new year of our relationships. And this happening days is on the 28th february 2009. wakaka~ well, since both of us are broke and we didnt really wana spend much, so i decided to cook on that historical day.

i wake up at 10 plus in the morning, prepare for violin class. after violin class, i heading up to Aeon to buy the material.. tonight's menu is cabonara and Orange-mushroom chop. haha...i didnt even noe i'm good at cooking.

cooking time= second world war happening.hehe.. kind of mess up somethi in my grandma's kitchen. thanks god tht i didnt burn out the kitchen. The most 'sui' thi is i didnt estimate the time when i'm cooking.i was actually rushing..all thanks to my mum who suddenly pass me a free movie ticket the day before because they are goin outstation and cant make it.Fuii~~at last i ended my cookng with satisfaction, and my cousin and aunty kinda like the cabonara and they even finish the whole big bowl that i prepared for them. haha...Lastly, i drive back to my house to prepare for tonights dinner.. haha...not forget to mention, our drinks for the night is avorgado with milk.

orange-mushroom chop

the cabonara

the drinks:p

the picture we taken after i'm back from bali(coz v didnt take picture during our annivesary) pai seh ~ :)

anyon who wan the recipe can ask from me..haha, Lastly, the fatty ken kind da enjoy the dinner.xoxo~

deeply nervous

2009-01-14T12:56:00.003+08:00

wana go taylor today..to ask for the enquiry.but i dunno they will accept me arnot.
was really having a hard and tough time recently. but when i think back the time at KBU, this is really nothi. i can survive at kbu this type of college means i will have the courage to face what i going to face. Huuu.... i hope it will be a sucesss
.

2009-01-13T01:02:00.002+08:00

promise never be a promise...u all say tht wont fight infont of me anymore..so, wats tht now??

i know tht you are having a great pressure. but me too. i wish to go register earlier. but i'm afraid of the feeling to go alone.i'm stress too. i hate people to discuss my stuff. but i keep everythi inside my heart who can i tell too. what i want is just a simple and peacefull family.

i hate it when u drink..i hate it when u shout...i hateit when both of u fight. i have had it enough since i'm young. there's always a limit witin it. please...

Conversation within my heart

2008-12-17T01:44:00.002+08:00

hey heart, if i ever know what u wanted..then it wil be much more easier in my life. I know that certain things i should have let it go since end years ago. but i jus could not do it right. i'm confused...i'm lost..and the feelngs hurts..a lot..and it repeated again and again.

i wish there's a solution for it and i thought i found it. but why do you react it so abnormal when i started reading about it. that feelings is scaring and i do not know how to handle it. i wish that i could cry out lout but i know i'm not qualified to do so. Once again, i pray that one day i could get away from this burden. A stone which fall on u and causing u to bleed..i'm trying harder then any one else.

THE CAVE on the 11 OCT 08

2008-11-16T02:27:00.011+08:00

Today was my 18th year old birthday, well,obviously i will spend this precious moment with my Beloved. wakakaka...sounds grossy.

Nieway, Tht flawfull Ken Choi had decided to bring me out to a mystery place as this is what he said.

we depart at 7 o'clock at night, 1st v went to the curve when he claim that he have to help his sister t pick up somethi. Okie, but he insist to ask me not to follow him to the shop, so, i was reading at Borders. when everthi is done. He bring me to ss2., then i starting guessing with all the restaurant that in ss2 which i thought he will bring me there. Well, My boyfriend wasn't those who r romantic or guys who will do fancy things..so, i thought tht he is gona bring to some cafe or wat..

SURPRISINGLY, He bring me to the cave. A very special, unique shop which their decoration or rooms r jus ike yu were in the cave. And he even make a reservation before tht. Haha...I was so happy with it.
IN THE CAVE:

insite the room where he choose

me and the flawful ken

the room in a cave

our couple drinks~

Everythi turns to be sweet when i'm with him

Appertizer~

his main dish

my main dish

muax maux

he requested to post lik that..(lame)

MY BIrthDAY CUp CakES!!

WisHIng~

Well now, This is the 'Things' Tht he has been busy around to pick at theCurve. My birthday cakes.

Officially 8-teen

Cheers~

I loVe YOu! and Thanks..

His Lame-ness

I had A really good birthday this year. And i hope it will happen every of my birthday. THanks ling for ur effort on everythi eventhought i later found out that wun and thomas did help u a lot. Muax...Thanks.

MY Earlier BIRTHDAY Celebration!!!

2008-11-16T00:53:00.016+08:00

well, 11 oct is my birthday but i coudldn't update my birthday on that day coz my stupid laptop is having some problem.So, since i'm having holidays now, i will update all that i had missed out right now.

We went for steamboat before going to the cafe, and there is the time when things seems to be a little bit fishy. haha...

On 4 Oct 08,
Venue:Station one Cafe
TIme: I cant really remember it(coz i'm always the late one)
Objective: To celebrate sheena's birthday and mine.(which they actually cheated on us by telling me and sheen that they r celebrating the opposite birthday, which makes me thought that is sheen's birthday party eventhought i smell somethi fishy..haha.., me and she were being a good girl to prepare for the bday. hehe..)

V were all taking pic(as usual)

(the s.s. group)

Sheena is actually taking my picture

This madam here is searchig for night mode n her camera

Acting cute

here goes another one

Y issit all the picture got sheena foo's face wan. HAHA~

Camera Girl

Five!!(since so many girls like to pose with number, so v decided to have one too)

ONE~

SesaT Fen

Were Playing!

Thanks to NG SU SIN's cheer AKA SHOut out loud (which pretty embbarassing)

ME and FEn

Me ANd Ting

ME WIth HORTON THE ELEPHANT(Wakakaka...)

Following was all the surprise that they prepare( For SHeena ANd ME)

Our 18th year old Birthday Cake!

A special memory booklet which recorded with all their wishes and our memory!!I LOvE it!

NOSTALGIA!! Cd

it SUppose to be a eye "cover" which is suit for a pig like me. But i thought it was a mask for mouth.haha..

Monkey underwear(monkey = ME) which is wat they feel.

I love sushi's Tee. For Ex president of japanese club..

monkey's pencilcase(LOVEly)

The birthday girls~

I really appeciate all the time hat i spend with you guys. Thanks for all te things that you have done for me. I really hope that there is nothi or anyone that can break this friendship of mine which i really cares so much. For whoever that trying to mess with my friend , you better WATCH out. because i love them so much.. LIFE rocks~

Happy birthday sheena And me!

I'm Free frOm the "HeLL"

2008-11-14T23:43:00.003+08:00

Hoooray, i cant describe how i feel now but just wana tell people tht : Kick my ass and I'm gona tell ou i'm free!!!...

Finally i've finish my AUSMAT from the suckest College that i've ever meet. Althought this is my very own first time to enter the college. I just don understand why their management would gone so badly that they even mix the private student with the goverment scholar. Which they had already have half a year to prepare before entering the course.This seems to be so unfair to te private students which study less then their others classmate for half a year.Even Taylors college know about the seperation between this. I just don understan why KBU couldn't manage to do like how taylors and other college does.

What i could say is, i've really been through a tough time in KBU fot the AUSMAT course. Being humiliate by others or feeling lonely during lunch or break time. But thanks god that i've still manage to be with some of my coursemate. Hmmm... This is reallly a tough time for me which i've lose my confidence on myself.

Even try to give up and make myself suffer from depression and under medication for that. But after all, I'M FREE!!! I'm so glad that i've finish the course..no matter how it gona be, I've force myself to gone through it. Thanks to all my friends who had given me support and courage when i really really Hate KBU so much and don feel like goin to college. ESpecially to ken, Who always try to be by my side. I loVe you all..

Lastly, I'm realease from that f**king place. Almost cry everyday when i'm at KBU.

GooD BYE Kbu~~I hope We will never meet anymore!!WAkakakaka...(sounds evil)

Technical problem

2008-10-06T00:28:00.001+08:00

ooh gosh, my laptop is having some prob. so, i will upload my blog wen it is ok. the picture of my early + surprise birthday party will be upload soon..

c ya...........

28.9.08

2008-09-28T15:21:00.002+08:00

28 is the date that i feel most happy with it in every month..because evrytime when the dates come..it means that me and ken is being 2gether for another month..But this month wasn't that good. because his uncle jus pass away on the 27 of sept.. he next day he have to go hepl out at the funeral...and i really understand about this, i'm sad towards this too and worry ma ma..

i went out wit sin for luch this morning.. after our girl's nite last nite.. v were lik going out with our panda bear..v 2gether went for a skin consultation at the afternoon..As usual, im da driver..after all,i went back home.. On the way back, ken ask to go his house. he telling me that he is at home now.bt i already reaching my home, so i ask him to come over bcoz i'm sick of driving+ tired. But ended up, he went out with his dad for lunch..and me ?until now oso haven take my lunch yet. Before v hang up on the fon..v wasn't really talk much..and i really miss him. so, i waited for his msg and cal... for few hours. i thought that he is angry with me. i feel really very bad..i was alone at home, my mind keep comin up with all the negative thought. i stop myself from crying.. i went to the room and watch moonlight resonance..but, i keep thinking of him, and i keep go check my hp..even a little sound from the birds i oso thought that is my hp rang. after that , i give up.. and suddenly, i heard my msg ring tone. i saw his msg..he tell me that he fall asleep and sorri for didn't msg me.. My tears come out.. and i'm crying.. i dunno how to reply him. really dunno, he reach home but he didnt msg me.. im lik a idiot who waiting for the fon to ring.. and rushing out lik a stupid to check da msg.. but it's all not from him..

The 28 of this month, i'm crying alone at home..when he is sleepin.

De Sudden feeling...

2008-09-25T15:48:00.005+08:00

Today is the day for my applicable maths exam...and thank god that i'm not late to college today. Because i've being late for the past 2 days to my exam. and is not normal type of late, i late for more than half and hour.. all thanks to the damansara stupid toll which always cause traffic jam and it really cause me have insufficient time to finish my paper . I actually wake up very early today to prepared.. Well, exam was exam.. i don like applicable maths esspecially when it comes to probability.

i'm out of wire today, i really don feel good about that exam. And after the test, i rush to library with my coursemate to try to search for some info for the chemistry paper. On the way Back to klg, i suddenly have a thought of crying. I feel that i'm lonely. Yes, i repeat.. lonely. i Wasn't happy with my paper jus now. but i dunno who to turn to. was thinking to go and look for ken.. but i know he's having test. then i call my mum, i decided not to go home first coz i feelin lik needed somebody with me. v decide to meet up at Aeon coz she is waiting for my grandma and cosin to get ready..

At Aeon, the feeling of loneliness is even worst. Because i dunno where to go.. so, i went to porpular to try to hide myself in the books lik how i usually do.And i found a CD which i dunno somehow why i walk to that department. i took up the earphone and listen.. It was an instimental song.. And i love it very much..i Feel peace and calm with the rythme. the CD called 'The secret garden'... I think i know why i felt in love with it so much.. Because it brings me back some of my memory..and it suit my mood at that time.I bought it..It cost me RM60..whoo..

Another tiring day due to having only 3 hours sleeping time :P

The Scret garden which reflects my mood...

2008-09-19T21:16:00.000+08:00

yes. i'm angring... i hate it everytime when i waited for u or expecting somethi from u.. u would'nt turn up for that.. i hate it when u use that type of tone to yell to me... i hate it when u everytime makes me dissapointed.. u don even understand me well... and this is not da 1st time... the same problem is going again and again...

i didn't do anythi wrong... but y everytime u wil ended up scolding me and i somehow have to give in even if i really don wan it...i'm angry but i couldn't tell YOU. because i know it is useless to do so.. end up i have to give in because everytime you cry and try 2 blame me back.. or u will compare this tht u have done to me...

Yes, v did try to talk bout it.. and i try my very best to peal myself to tell you about my unsatisfaction.. But you will never change, u strike me through my heart again and again...i feel lik crying now, but i wouldn't because i'm numb.

do you really know me??

BLUR soTong..

2008-09-19T18:58:00.000+08:00

well, today is my very typical blur day. Why do I say so..v shall start with da list of how many stupid thi i've done it 2day..

1.8:30 AM- i jus finish shower and im looking for my spec. Guess wat, with da high power i've , i cant even see tht my spec is on my bed and it's right infront of me. ish...end up, i searching around in my house untill i suddenly realise tht i have actually left it on my bed.

2. 4.30 PM- during violin class, now i'm with my spec but i keep pressing out of da note.2 cases in da class, either i'm pressing da wrong key or i'm not resting when there is a crotchen rest. But my teacher is even Blur -er den me, coz she accidentaly cout wrong counting. v ended laughing at there. But she say there's an improvement on me.

3. 5.45PM- i'm using kesas highway to go back home. i thought it could be a short distance bcause my house is at kg jawa while my music class is at bkt tinggi. Who knows, when i was happily singing while driving, i MiSS da Turn.. OMG, it cause me 2 pay extra money for da tol , stupid road tax and it wasted my petrol. I've to go to bkt kemuning to make a big u turn come out and pay again.. ish, blurness is expensive.

4. 7.00PM- i was looking for my hp, so i thought i left it at da car.. therefore , i went 2 my car and search for it.DUN HAVE~~ tht 's da 1st words i shout in da car, im starting to panic now. and guess wat??! my hp is inside my room on my study table which i jus now took it out and transfering da file in my hp to my laptop. Oh my....when i saw it after i come into my room, im thinking M i really qualify to take engineering course with da attitude of being blurness.

Nieway, i don't consider dis as my bad day. Because this morning when i'm on da way to grandma's house, i saw somethi. is reflect from the sky.. look down

the light tht reflect down from da sky through the cloud.. looks like heaven. haha....

P/S: road tax of kesas high way shouldn't be so high. because the road at kesas highway is so cacat-ed.

the little tht i can share with u..

2008-09-16T00:28:00.000+08:00

I remember tht when i was young, my grandma used 2 wash my school shoe for me. eventhought she dun really stay at klg . But everytime she come 2 klg, our house wil be her 1st choice. I love da time when she's around. Bcoz all my relative will come 2 my house and visit her. not oni tht, they usually bring a lot of food along with their visitation. I'm da oni child in m y family a t tht time, and my mum was da youngest child of my grandma.. this is da reason y my grandma love my mum so much. The food tht is given by my relatives to my grandma ended up wil me in my stomach coz my grandma always ask me 2 finish up eventhought some is her fav.

I love da time being with grandma, coz she is da one who always pay attention on me. she's da one who always keep me company when i feel lonely. She is da one who sacrifice herself 2 bcome my protection when i'm beaten by my parents. She is da one who hug me when i cry..she is da one who always trust in me and give me courage..

Remember tht time looking at her on da bed in the hospital,tht is da 1st time i feel my heart is aching. tht is da 1st time in my life i learn bout sorrow. tht time i was oni 10 years old.. i tried very hard 2 shout 2 her.. i wish tht she will awake and look at me jus lik how she used 2 do.. i even tell her tht if she wak up now, i wil accompany her 2 china.. bt, she couldn't hear it. and she leave us without giving me a chance 2 say good bye 2 her. Everytime i think bout her, my heart ached and i wil cry til non stop. even now, my tears have wet my keyboard.

After 8 years, i finally understand y u choose 2 stay with us everytime when u come back 2 klg. it's bcoz u wana look after ur daughter. U love all of us more then v do.. And u have done da best for us. A ma, I love you! may u rest in peace. i always wish tht u wil give us more time 2 spend with u so tht v can treat u in return, maybe not in return but in a better way. Love you grandma..

A special day...

2008-09-06T01:56:00.000+08:00

Dis morning after class, i went 2 room A708.. there is da place tht wher CF of KBU usually held...While listening my fren practicing with his keyboard, da christian song tht he played had actually touched me.. it reminds me of how long i've never been 2 church. Out of sudden, it recalls back all the memory of mine being a part of a 'family' in church. wat can i say , i miss those days. Miss da day tht being bz all da time with my church fren.. Missing all da time tht how passionate i'm in praising our Lord. Miss da time of mine with god, how closely bonded v r.. bt... everythi have come 2 da end.. i cant b 2 church anymore...i jus miss those days.

well, 2nite i've had a little fight with him...it make me realise tht in this world, there is a rare number of people , who will have the chance to meet some1 who really mean 2 them. And even if u hav meet..it doesn't means tht he will fully understand u. Is amazing tht god created different kind,type, attitude of ppl and yet they somehow still can b link 2gether. God is great!

He is the amazing tht god hav given me!!haha...

My FaVoRiTE PlAcE

2008-09-04T00:06:00.000+08:00

Well, i would lik to intro u guys a place. A place whic can let one's hair down---PERHENTIAN island. It is located at the northest side of M'sia and is located at terengganu:

and the best thing tht u can do in this island is snorkeling or scuba diving...remembering when i went 2 perhentian with my family, our snorkeling activities is pack for two days...at there u could really enjoy da fun and swimming around the fisheS...

Not only tht, there is a snorkeling spot called turtle point..at there,u can get a chance 2 swim wit turtle:

If u don't like those tiring activities, u can jus stay at da beach side and enjoy sun bathing..

Perhentian is divided 2 two island, tht is perhentian besar and perhentian kecil. on my last trip 2 perhentian, i still remember tht there is a cooling Air Terjun located at perhentian kecil. It is jus a small water fall bt da water tht is flowing down is cold enough and it is clean.

Sitting down on da beach side at the evening, with da person i love while enjoying da sunset...this is da happeist thi tht i had ever had.And oh ya, the night view at perhentian is 'chun' coz u can c all da stars are twinkling... This is da moment tht i enjoy da most..

LoVe iS...

2008-09-03T00:41:00.000+08:00

feeling happy when he is around...
power of chilling down ur unstable emotion...

love is...

drinking a cup of green tea latte with you..
hugging you like a koala bear...

love is...

feeling sad when u put down my fon..

lonely when seeing you walking away...

love is all about being with you.....